breaking through
from mind
through flesh
to ink
onto a page

the words i use
hard words
silly words
foolish words
painful words
strong words
my words

they reflect
create
re-create

like a child
learning to walk
i begin again from this moment
and will begin
again...
and again...

and i will use my words
to record
to process
to honour
as they
break through
again...
and again...

i stare into the grey
wanting to fall in
envelope myself
in the nothingness

but not too far do i lean
i’m afraid to fall
and find her there
the she who is me.
and she will enter into me
or i into her
until one of us finds.
wholeness
and the other (dis)appears

i stay back
only staring in
wanting...
waiting...