ah, sometimes i have to wonder about my sanity. it's been a hard couple of days. i've been riding too many waves of emtional highs and lows... i think it's time to do some soul searching, and to ask myself some questions about what i want to be doing with the rest of my life. it seems i'm in a holding pattern, and i don't want to be here anymore. i need to move on. i just don't know to what or to where....

...a bit of frivolity...



the funny thing (to me at least) is that i once thought i knew myself (ah, hubris)...since then i've let that fallacy go....
the fun part of this test was reading what my personality type (INTP) means...hmmm...food for thought...

i wake up often now and wonder where the last ten years went. i just closed my eyes for a moment and when i opened them, i was a decade older. it's all too precious to take for granted, our years here, and i forget that.

i don't fear growing older; i fear the regret of a life not fully lived...to have loved and have been loved. but fear stops me from living right now, being fully present in every moment that i'm awake.

life is a sequence of memories, snapshots of images and emotions we carry with us. when i am in the latter years of my life (should i be graced with that opportunity) i want to make sure that the majority of my life experiences have nourished my soul and expanded my understanding of life...