old habits not only die hard, they fight back, clawing, biting, and kicking.....i fall back into old patterns again and again.....i find perverse comfort in the familiarty of the self-destructive, soul crippling thoughts.....it doesn't matter what my head knows...it's my heart that needs to hear....
and it will..i will have faith...i will have faith...
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(Update: this blog documented in words a journey, a transition into a new place of being...don't say you weren't warned...)
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- jl
- Hmmm...irreverant comes to mind....hopefully there's more to me than that. I started this blog to try to document some of my journey, past and present...
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my idiosycrasies...in no particular order...
1. i value honesty
2. i'm addicted to luxury hotels
3. i am usually reserved with people
4. i don't make friends easily
5. i love good food
6. i like to talk about myself, but usually only do when asked
7. i'm addicted to coffee - but only good coffee
8. i can make small talk, but secretly hate it
9. i'm hyper aware of people's "energy".
10. i don't like bratty children
11. i love a good read
12. i am a procrastinator
13. when i'm in a bad mood, it's easy to get me out of it.
14. i am an extremely light sleeper
15. i don't like shallow, flaky people
16. i won't fight for conversation space in a group
17. i am a loyal friend
18. i believe that there is always more than one side to a story
19. i am a horrible student
20. i don't like liars
21. i don't "play games" with people
22. i do like real games though
23. a great night is spent with a few close friends
24. i get anxious when i'm not organized
25. i want to see the world
26. i believe in love
27. i believe in forgiveness
28. i hate being taken for granted
29. i like to dress up to go to the opera once in a while
30. i like to wear comfy sweats and skechers
31. i have to have popcorn when i go to the movies
32. i like british movies
33. i'm a tv addict
34. i admire compassionate people
35. i don't like christmas hype
36. i like to cook for people
37. i don't like people who i can't rely on
38. i'm at home when i'm on the water (which i don't do enough)
39. i'm a recovering shoe-aholic
40. ...to be continued...
2. i'm addicted to luxury hotels
3. i am usually reserved with people
4. i don't make friends easily
5. i love good food
6. i like to talk about myself, but usually only do when asked
7. i'm addicted to coffee - but only good coffee
8. i can make small talk, but secretly hate it
9. i'm hyper aware of people's "energy".
10. i don't like bratty children
11. i love a good read
12. i am a procrastinator
13. when i'm in a bad mood, it's easy to get me out of it.
14. i am an extremely light sleeper
15. i don't like shallow, flaky people
16. i won't fight for conversation space in a group
17. i am a loyal friend
18. i believe that there is always more than one side to a story
19. i am a horrible student
20. i don't like liars
21. i don't "play games" with people
22. i do like real games though
23. a great night is spent with a few close friends
24. i get anxious when i'm not organized
25. i want to see the world
26. i believe in love
27. i believe in forgiveness
28. i hate being taken for granted
29. i like to dress up to go to the opera once in a while
30. i like to wear comfy sweats and skechers
31. i have to have popcorn when i go to the movies
32. i like british movies
33. i'm a tv addict
34. i admire compassionate people
35. i don't like christmas hype
36. i like to cook for people
37. i don't like people who i can't rely on
38. i'm at home when i'm on the water (which i don't do enough)
39. i'm a recovering shoe-aholic
40. ...to be continued...
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4 comments:
We have all fought that fight I think! It's amazing how cruel we can be to ourselves, our internal diologue is always a billion times worse than anything anyone else can say!
Keep the faith my sista keep the faith
E
Life is about fighting, ..against principalities, power, evil, good...
We all are the under the influence of somebody all the time, believe it or not..
So on our feets!!lets fight a good fight , becomng more better living being..
I find myself battling the demons of my years, in exactly this way. I'll think I'm doing well only to realize they have crept back in from the shadows and I hadn't noticed!
So again, I try to slay them, or at least send them off yelping...
But finding courage in the beautiful souls I've met here, I won't give up!
Beautiful souls like yours!
alan
Say no to the committee they suck.
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