Friday, November 16, 2007

”I want to be less predictable, more various and flexible and hospitable to surprise...I want to be inconvenient and alive.”

i read those words last week, and since then that last phrase has been circling in my brain, and rolling around in my mouth...

...i want to be inconvenient and alive...
...i want to be inconvenient and alive...

what does it mean? it means that i want to live a life for me...not for how others perceive me......i want to be inconvenient and alive...i want to not care if i look foolish, or stupid, or incompetent. ...i want to be inconvenient and alive...i want to be okay with being disorganized if i want to be, or lazy, or selfish.......i want to be inconvenient and alive...i want to not worry that i’m making someone uncomfortable with how i am, or what i say, or what i want...

...i want to be inconvenient and alive...

i want to shout those words out to the world....because i need to hear myself say them over and over again, until i know that in all of who i am - the stuff i love, the stuff i hate, and the stuff i try to hide from the world – i am worthy of everything this world has to offer...

...i want to be inconvenient and alive...

5 comments:

alan said...

Magnificent...the words and yourself, both!

alan

Unknown said...

Definatly words to live your life by!
love you.

KellyNerd said...

beautiful words AGAIN. You have talent.

um,,, hotmail not working ... haven't been able to respond to you!

Unknown said...

I *too* want to be inconvenient and alive! Wonderful post.

prin said...

Awesome. :)

Good luck to you. :)