you know when life catches up to you and - whoompf - just sets you on your ass? mine just did that to me again…and this time i’m listening…
i know that i’m not the only person to feel as though i'm not fully living…to “go through the motions”, to over-compensate in some areas for what is lacking in the others….and i know that i’m not the only one who has crisis of…(well, not exactly faith, as i do not subscribe to any formal religious beliefs…)…well, a crisis of belief i guess, belief in myself…belief in others…belief that we matter…belief that if i say what i think, i won’t fall off the earth…
how do i change who i am? and yes, i do have to do that. as odd as it sounds to my own ears, i have to become myself…and how do i do that after all these years of ingrained habits, learned fears, self-censoring…? with work, with stepping outside my comfort zones in many areas, with taking risks, with breathing, and with taking one day at a time....
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(Update: this blog documented in words a journey, a transition into a new place of being...don't say you weren't warned...)
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- Hmmm...irreverant comes to mind....hopefully there's more to me than that. I started this blog to try to document some of my journey, past and present...
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my idiosycrasies...in no particular order...
1. i value honesty
2. i'm addicted to luxury hotels
3. i am usually reserved with people
4. i don't make friends easily
5. i love good food
6. i like to talk about myself, but usually only do when asked
7. i'm addicted to coffee - but only good coffee
8. i can make small talk, but secretly hate it
9. i'm hyper aware of people's "energy".
10. i don't like bratty children
11. i love a good read
12. i am a procrastinator
13. when i'm in a bad mood, it's easy to get me out of it.
14. i am an extremely light sleeper
15. i don't like shallow, flaky people
16. i won't fight for conversation space in a group
17. i am a loyal friend
18. i believe that there is always more than one side to a story
19. i am a horrible student
20. i don't like liars
21. i don't "play games" with people
22. i do like real games though
23. a great night is spent with a few close friends
24. i get anxious when i'm not organized
25. i want to see the world
26. i believe in love
27. i believe in forgiveness
28. i hate being taken for granted
29. i like to dress up to go to the opera once in a while
30. i like to wear comfy sweats and skechers
31. i have to have popcorn when i go to the movies
32. i like british movies
33. i'm a tv addict
34. i admire compassionate people
35. i don't like christmas hype
36. i like to cook for people
37. i don't like people who i can't rely on
38. i'm at home when i'm on the water (which i don't do enough)
39. i'm a recovering shoe-aholic
40. ...to be continued...
2. i'm addicted to luxury hotels
3. i am usually reserved with people
4. i don't make friends easily
5. i love good food
6. i like to talk about myself, but usually only do when asked
7. i'm addicted to coffee - but only good coffee
8. i can make small talk, but secretly hate it
9. i'm hyper aware of people's "energy".
10. i don't like bratty children
11. i love a good read
12. i am a procrastinator
13. when i'm in a bad mood, it's easy to get me out of it.
14. i am an extremely light sleeper
15. i don't like shallow, flaky people
16. i won't fight for conversation space in a group
17. i am a loyal friend
18. i believe that there is always more than one side to a story
19. i am a horrible student
20. i don't like liars
21. i don't "play games" with people
22. i do like real games though
23. a great night is spent with a few close friends
24. i get anxious when i'm not organized
25. i want to see the world
26. i believe in love
27. i believe in forgiveness
28. i hate being taken for granted
29. i like to dress up to go to the opera once in a while
30. i like to wear comfy sweats and skechers
31. i have to have popcorn when i go to the movies
32. i like british movies
33. i'm a tv addict
34. i admire compassionate people
35. i don't like christmas hype
36. i like to cook for people
37. i don't like people who i can't rely on
38. i'm at home when i'm on the water (which i don't do enough)
39. i'm a recovering shoe-aholic
40. ...to be continued...
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6 comments:
here is to hearing what your ass is saying !!! lol, just trying to make you smile.. I KNOW that is not what you said..
... how are you today?
... i dont think you should change who you are... i think you need to change how you see your beautiful self.
While I doubt myself constantly, I believe fervently in you!
While I fear the repercussions of what I say, I know each word you speak is truth!
While I doubt that I matter much in the course of things, I know you and your beautiful soul matter immensely to those around you and those who know you and those who love you!
Like me!
alan
With baby steps my sista! and with knowing in your heart and head that those that really really love you (us) are going to love you no matter what!
If you feel unauthentic then you owe it to yourself to take those steps, you must because life is short and you would enjoy it so much more if you were living it as you!
Love you.
I tagged you for a really fun meme. check out my blog today to see it...
it's about risks
and you are taking them:)
I could have written this post myself. It's nice to *meet* you and thank you for stopping by my blog. I hope to see you around.
nina
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